Family Marks

I fell in love with a star.

It died.

I fell in love with a bird.

It flew.

I fell in love with a horse shoe.

It broke.

I fell in love with a torch.

It dampened.

But I fell in love with Jace,

It lasted. 

Never Enough

She stares at you

You stare back

You see nothing but her beautiful eyes

You can't see how sad she is

Maybe because, she isn't sad enough

And maybe that's why she's sad

Because she's never enough. 

Alam Nating Pareho: One Shot

Ako's POV (Akiko)

I want to die. Gusto ko nang mamatay. In other words, suicidal stage ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Minsan, gusto ko na lang wakasan ang buhay ko, misan naman, nanghihinayang. Patuloy lang ako sa paglalakad sa walang katapusang side walk. Ganon talaga. Walang jeep e. Magpabangga kaya ako? Kaso hindi sure death yon. Mamaya, mabuhay pa ko. Gastos pa ng Nanay ko hospital. Okay lang naman maglakad, basta wag lang umulan. As if on cue, umuulan na nga. Baka siguro ganon ang utak ng tao. Kung ano ang iniisip mo, yun ang mangyayari. May kilala akong ganon mag isip e. Ganon daw. Theory, ewan ko dun. Pilit kong kinakapa ang payong sa bag ko. Tanga lang? Kakapa ng bagay na wala? Ha-ha. Sinasalo ko ba ang kamalasan ngayon araw? Pwede na kong maggawa ng Basang Basa Sa Ulan MV. Pero, bakit ko pa kailangan magpakamatay e feeling ko, malapit na rin nama ako. I know, it's very soon. I can feel the twitching of my heart. It's like, it's breaking into two. And yet, the pieces are being pressed together. Fck. Not now, hindi sa ilalim ng ulan. Magmumuka akong maputlang bangkay. No. I waited for some minutes and the twitching was gone. I started coughing endlessly. At hinayaan ko lang. Titigil din naman. Minsan ko ng ni search kung ano bang tawag don. Nakalimutan ko na nga e. Tss. Kung mamatay, mamatay. Actually, bukod don, wala namang kasama sama sa buhay ko. Kumpleto pamilya ko. Nakakakain ng 3 beses sa isang araw. Ganon ganon. But, I just feel so tired. Marami ring nagmamahal sakin. At ayan, tumigil na ang ulan. Sa halip na dumiretso sa kanto papunta samin, lumihis ako ng daan. Papunta ako sa aking "haven." At narating ko na nga ito. I can see the endless pit down there. Now. Magpapakamatay ba ako ngayon or ipagpapabukas ko muna? Magpapaalam ba muna ako sa kanila? Particularly, sa KANYA. Sa kaisa isang taong alam kong, kahit anong mangyari, would never let me down. Will I get this done and give up on life or continue living for others? Masaya ako sa desisyon ko, na alam nating pareho kung ano.

Ming Ming

As of this momen, may sakit talaga ako huhu. I think it was because I was so high during the party and despite of being tired na, walked until Alabang. Inwas half sleeping when Inarrived home and chatted for some time and drifted off to sleep. Now that I'm awake, I still have my ID on, my wristwatch with me and the rubber shoes. Freak. I'm soo sick.

One of The Things I Can Never Be Good At

Editing is so not for me. I just had to make thesefor our Computer quiz. Searched for a girl emote-ing then put her on that sea background. The other one is autumn in NY then put Zayn Malik there as if welcoming whoever is going there with a sign I got from the net. 

Miao

Today has been very eventful and I freaking love this day. Swear huhu.

First, we sang for MsMae. Technically, they sang for MsMae, all I did was try to make my voice hear-able for myself during the chorus. I don't want to ruin the blending and the performance kase.

Next, I WAS EXCUSED THE WHOLE DAY. FREAK. I love what I did. I painted. Well, I can say that painting is the only thing that can make me shut up. Whatever I do, I'm talking/singing or at most, my lips are movin'. I sleeptalk (freaking vids from my sistahs), I sing while I bake, sing in the shower, do some shows in the bathroom, and all those. So, painting is the only thing that can make me shut up. I'm quiet when I paint, I don't know why. Just. And I love blue and it was so fab having to finish that background and that guy with fancy hair. I sketched that guy and nervous cause I thought I might make the guy fat, just like what my classmates say. But it turned out pretty well. I love it.

Then, we had some talk with Sir Fred about things. About taking Fine Arts and all those in life.

Then, I had a fun time trying to be a pro photographer. Now I know why photographers love to take picture. Especially when you take the candid ones, like they're so happy. (:3)

Then Alex Lee was freaking amazing with the drums. I swear.Before, if it's a band, whoever is playing the electric guitar is the most attractive for me. Now, I'm seriously watching Alex more than I watched MinHoo. He was so good. T T I wish I can play like that.

Then, Charles, Nikki and I went to Jollibee and talk about our usual shits.

Then, we saw Sir Lyle and they (Charles and him) had their own worlds so do Nikki and I. We talked about THINGS and it was so fun.

The last thing that made me happy before writing this entry is the jeepney sign saying,"Alabang Falengke." I started thinking of fink, furfle and vlue. HAHA.

I want

I want so many things

I want


a Siamese cat again
iPad 4
Samsung phone?
Samsung laptop
Converse shoes
bottomless bag of chocolates?
cupcakes
pastries
trip to London
trip to wherever 5S0S is now
trip to the moon
trip to wherever Emma Watson is right now
Hogwarts?
my own pastries shop
Straight As


I WANT TO STUDY LITERATURE AND STUDY IN LA CORDON BLEU LONDON AND LIVE IN LONDON.

I WANT SO MANY THINGS IN LIFE andd, I'M A POOR PERSON. </3 I MUST STUDY.