Saturday, October 3, 2015

Message From Me

Blog friends! Check out my new blog: shadowhunter1131.blogspot.com I assure you that it's better than this blog :)

Monday, August 17, 2015

School should be cool, not stressful.

This blog has been dead for so long. And, and now, I'm bringing its life back. Djk. Srsly, I just want to rant about stuff. It's just the 3rd week and I'm so stressed with school already. Like srsly? My gosh. I thought school was a place to study, not a place where you'd crack your brains, over use your body and cry your hearts out. Okay, bye. XD

Monday, July 6, 2015

Family Marks

I fell in love with a star.
It died.
I fell in love with a bird.
It flew.
I fell in love with a horse shoe.
It broke.
I fell in love with a torch.
It dampened.
But I fell in love with Jace,
It lasted. 

Friday, May 8, 2015

Never Enough

She stares at you
You stare back
You see nothing but her beautiful eyes
You can't see how sad she is
Maybe because, she isn't sad enough
And maybe that's why she's sad
Because she's never enough. 

Alam Nating Pareho: One Shot


Ako's POV (Akiko)

I want to die. Gusto ko nang mamatay. In other words, suicidal stage ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Minsan, gusto ko na lang wakasan ang buhay ko, misan naman, nanghihinayang. Patuloy lang ako sa paglalakad sa walang katapusang side walk. Ganon talaga. Walang jeep e. Magpabangga kaya ako? Kaso hindi sure death yon. Mamaya, mabuhay pa ko. Gastos pa ng Nanay ko hospital. Okay lang naman maglakad, basta wag lang umulan. As if on cue, umuulan na nga. Baka siguro ganon ang utak ng tao. Kung ano ang iniisip mo, yun ang mangyayari. May kilala akong ganon mag isip e. Ganon daw. Theory, ewan ko dun. Pilit kong kinakapa ang payong sa bag ko. Tanga lang? Kakapa ng bagay na wala? Ha-ha. Sinasalo ko ba ang kamalasan ngayon araw? Pwede na kong maggawa ng Basang Basa Sa Ulan MV. Pero, bakit ko pa kailangan magpakamatay e feeling ko, malapit na rin nama ako. I know, it's very soon. I can feel the twitching of my heart. It's like, it's breaking into two. And yet, the pieces are being pressed together. Fck. Not now, hindi sa ilalim ng ulan. Magmumuka akong maputlang bangkay. No. I waited for some minutes and the twitching was gone. I started coughing endlessly. At hinayaan ko lang. Titigil din naman. Minsan ko ng ni search kung ano bang tawag don. Nakalimutan ko na nga e. Tss. Kung mamatay, mamatay. Actually, bukod don, wala namang kasama sama sa buhay ko. Kumpleto pamilya ko. Nakakakain ng 3 beses sa isang araw. Ganon ganon. But, I just feel so tired. Marami ring nagmamahal sakin. At ayan, tumigil na ang ulan. Sa halip na dumiretso sa kanto papunta samin, lumihis ako ng daan. Papunta ako sa aking "haven." At narating ko na nga ito. I can see the endless pit down there. Now. Magpapakamatay ba ako ngayon or ipagpapabukas ko muna? Magpapaalam ba muna ako sa kanila? Particularly, sa KANYA. Sa kaisa isang taong alam kong, kahit anong mangyari, would never let me down. Will I get this done and give up on life or continue living for others? Masaya ako sa desisyon ko, na alam nating pareho kung ano.

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Ming Ming

As of this momen, may sakit talaga ako huhu. I think it was because I was so high during the party and despite of being tired na, walked until Alabang. Inwas half sleeping when Inarrived home and chatted for some time and drifted off to sleep. Now that I'm awake, I still have my ID on, my wristwatch with me and the rubber shoes. Freak. I'm soo sick.




Saturday, April 25, 2015

One of The Things I Can Never Be Good At

Editing is so not for me. I just had to make thesefor our Computer quiz. Searched for a girl emote-ing then put her on that sea background. The other one is autumn in NY then put Zayn Malik there as if welcoming whoever is going there with a sign I got from the net. 





Friday, April 24, 2015

Miao

Today has been very eventful and I freaking love this day. Swear huhu.

First, we sang for MsMae. Technically, they sang for MsMae, all I did was try to make my voice hear-able for myself during the chorus. I don't want to ruin the blending and the performance kase.

Next, I WAS EXCUSED THE WHOLE DAY. FREAK. I love what I did. I painted. Well, I can say that painting is the only thing that can make me shut up. Whatever I do, I'm talking/singing or at most, my lips are movin'. I sleeptalk (freaking vids from my sistahs), I sing while I bake, sing in the shower, do some shows in the bathroom, and all those. So, painting is the only thing that can make me shut up. I'm quiet when I paint, I don't know why. Just. And I love blue and it was so fab having to finish that background and that guy with fancy hair. I sketched that guy and nervous cause I thought I might make the guy fat, just like what my classmates say. But it turned out pretty well. I love it.

Then, we had some talk with Sir Fred about things. About taking Fine Arts and all those in life.

Then, I had a fun time trying to be a pro photographer. Now I know why photographers love to take picture. Especially when you take the candid ones, like they're so happy. (:3)

Then Alex Lee was freaking amazing with the drums. I swear.Before, if it's a band, whoever is playing the electric guitar is the most attractive for me. Now, I'm seriously watching Alex more than I watched MinHoo. He was so good. T T I wish I can play like that.

Then, Charles, Nikki and I went to Jollibee and talk about our usual shits.

Then, we saw Sir Lyle and they (Charles and him) had their own worlds so do Nikki and I. We talked about THINGS and it was so fun.

The last thing that made me happy before writing this entry is the jeepney sign saying,"Alabang Falengke." I started thinking of fink, furfle and vlue. HAHA.

Thursday, April 23, 2015

I want

I want so many things

I want


a Siamese cat again
iPad 4
Samsung phone?
Samsung laptop
Converse shoes
bottomless bag of chocolates?
cupcakes
pastries
trip to London
trip to wherever 5S0S is now
trip to the moon
trip to wherever Emma Watson is right now
Hogwarts?
my own pastries shop
Straight As


I WANT TO STUDY LITERATURE AND STUDY IN LA CORDON BLEU LONDON AND LIVE IN LONDON.

I WANT SO MANY THINGS IN LIFE andd, I'M A POOR PERSON. </3 I MUST STUDY.

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

This is big time bulls***. Srsly. You freaking terabyte work right now. Fck. Ugh.

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Broken Ending

WOOO. Nakaka stress pala magsulat nito. Next time, please remind me na wag gamitin ang sariling pangalan. Nakaka stress isipin sa sarili ko. Madami pa kong pangarap huhu. And I believe in no sex before marriage. Arayt. Last na to.



Athena's

It's the big day. My big day. In 4 hours, magsisimula na yon. I went to the bathroom and cleaned myself. I have to look really really and extra pretty. After, I wore my bathrobe muna. Mum knocked on the door. Yep. She flew all the way from Hong Kong for this day. Well, perks of being a bride, makaka request ng kahit ano.
Mum: Nak, they'll be here in some minutes. Get ready.
As if on cue, dumating na yung mga make up artist. Inayos na yung buhok ko. This is such a great day. After a few hours, sinuot ko na yung dress. Ang ganda. Sobrang ganda. It FITS ME PERFECTLY.
Make up Artist: Ang ganda ganda mo.
Me: Thank you.
Mum: Nak, andyan na yung bridal car.
Me: Okay. Bababa na po. :)

We arrived at the church and dahil dumating na ang bride, nagsimula na. Ansarap sa feeling, walking down the aisle and all that, lalo na kapag ikaw yung pinakahuling naglalakad, finale kumbaga. I stared at the people who were wearing white and blue, my personal choice of motif. I stared at the flowers that I, and the flower girls were holding, red roses. Red, color of love. I saw the groom, near the altar.

"Athena," he whispered.
"Take care of her Liam. Take care of her," I replied. That's my duty right? As a maid of honor, I have to make sure that she will be alright. And as if on cue, the church door opened and it exposed her. The bride. My bestfriend. Myra.

They exhanged vows and the kiss, was perfect. Vows that I practiced a billion times before. Dapat ako yon. Ako yung bride. Ako yung nangangako, pero bakit, bakit yung pangako, napako?



We're here na sa reception. And the bride and the groom are dancing. She's smiling. i can't read what kind of smile. Winning? Idk. After some time, nagpahinga na sila.

I walked to the garden and,

Niall: What the fuck Myra? What the fuck. I was willing to take you.
Myra: Hah. Too late Niall. Too late. I had to do something. The baby's growing and what am I supposed to tell my parents? Disappoint them? So I knew, I had to do something.
And I went to her,
Me: Myra? Myra ano yon? Bakit , bakit ganon?
Myra: Hah sorry.
Me: Putangina Myra. Putangina. SORRY?
Myra: Sorry. Kailangan ako ng anak ko Besh.
Me: Pero bakit ako? Bakit kami? Bakit, bakit yung buhok ko?
Myra: Cause, it's perfect. A perferct woman, perfect man, perfect. Perfect to be ruined.
Athena: Fuck Myra. Fuck.Bakit akoooo?
Myra: Ganon talaga. Once, it was perfect, twice it's broken.



TAPOS NAAAAAAAAAA. :3

Broken (5)

NALOLOKA AKO SA PINAGAGAGAWA KO. Buntisin daw ba ang sarili? Jusko.



Athena's
Myra: I'm pregnant.
Me: Hah? E-edi tapos na bachelor days ni Niall.
Myra: H-hindi si Niall yung ama.
Me: ANO? Who, then?
Myra: S-si Liam.
Me: What the fuck? Stop the joke Besh.
Myra: I am not joking. We've been doing this for, for quite a long time. Besh, besh sorry.
Me: No. No.
Myra: Sorry. Kung, kung gusto mo, I'll go to the Philippines and-
Me: No no. You're so, you're so young and naive. L-Lia-Liam took advantage, didn't he?
Myra: A-a-y-yes. Kind of. But no I mean.
Me: H-he'll m-marry you.
Myra: B-but h-he's yours.
Me: I'm willing to d-drop the engagement for you.
Myra: B-but.
Me: No.
I walked out with only one destination in my mind, the studio.

Liam: Heeeyy babe! We're free today. Do you?
Me: Let's talk.
Liam: We, are, nott, talking?
Me: Outside.
Harry: I smell trouble trouble.
Lou: I knew you were trouble when you walked innn, shame on me nooww.
Harry: Oh shut up.
Niall: Thena, what's wrong?
Me: Every fcking thing.

Liam: Babe? What's wrong?
Tears started falling.
Me: You had, you had sex with Myra. (Fck, Nag isip ako kung isusulat ko tong sentence na to.GanFic is GenFic.)
I said more of a statement than a question.
Liam: B-babe. Ath-athena. It's not like.
Me: Did you, have sex with my bestfriend?
Liam: Athena..
Me: Answer the goddamned question. DID. YOU. HAVE. SEX. WITH. MY. BESTFRIEND?
Liam: Y-yes. B-but..
Me: She's pregnant.
Liam: WHAT? That's impossible. We did it last...
Me: Ohh. So you keep track? Woah. I'm impressed.
Liam: Babe.
Me: Marry her.
Liam: What? No!
Me: I said, marry her. Or we'll call her parents in the Philippines. Or we'll make an issue about you molesting someone. I think, your band mates wouldn't like that.
Liam: No, oh god. I told you, I hate changing plans.
Me: You should've thought of that before..
Liam: No. No.
Me: I'm a journalist Liam. You know I can,
Liam:  Oh fine! I'll marry her. But Athena, I- I love you so much.
Me: You fcked my bestfriend, face the fcking consequences.


Broken (4)

Wednesday^^

I tried to call Myra again and finally, she picked up.
Me: Myra?
Myra: Ohhrrgy, hirr dirrr Liammmm? Jowawersszx ng shuper juper blessedn khong beshieeee. Hawww arrr yuuu?
Me: Where are you? You're drunk. Hey. Ugh.

She hung up. I tried calling her again but it kept on ringing. I have to look for her. Athena's gonna kill me. We just patched things up this morning and she said to take care of her best friend. She'll kill me.


Thursday Night^^

Im here in front of Myra and Athena's flat and I have to talk to Myra.
*knock*knock*
Myra: Ohhh. Hell-o there.
Liam: Myra look. What happened last night was, was a mistake. Okay? A Mistake. A drunken Mistake.
Myra: Okayy?
Liam: You're not gonna tell Athena..
Myra: I'm not. But I trust enough to tell it to her. She deserves to know the truth, from you.
She closed the door in front of me. This is getting harder than I thought.



Fridayy^^

Athena's

Athena: Babe, I'm here alreaddyyy.
Liam: Ohgod. Thank you. I'm near the airport already.
Athena: Alright. Waitin'

I saw Liam approaching wearing those jeans (Athena, THOSE JEANS. Dang) , shirt, shades and cap. Well, mag ganyan naman sya, paparazzi can smell wherever they are.
Liam: Babe, let's get outta her. I missed youuu.
He hugged me and hugged him back.
Me: Excited much?
Liam: Too damn much.
Me: Wait, have you talked to Myra. She haven't called me or contacted.
Liam: Uhmm, I don't know. She's not, I mean, not going in the studio. Let's go in This Restaurant.
Me: Ohsure.



Me: BEBBB1 I'm homee naaa. Hallo?
I saw Myra walked out of her room with bloodshot eyes.
Me: Girl, Besh. What happened?
Myra: Besh sorry. Sorrryyy.
She kept on saying sorry while I hugged her.
Myra: Sorrry Besh. Sorrryy. Sorry.
Me: Bakit ha? Why? Anong nangyare?
Myra: I'm pregnant.

Broken (3)

Me: Myra?
Myra: Uhm yea? Liam? *sniff*
ME: Wait, are you okay?
Myra: What do you mean, am I okay? Of course I am. Are YOU okay?
Me: I am not.
Myra. What happened to Besh?
Me: Can we just, see each other? I mean, I can't really talk about this over phone.
Myra: Uhm, sure? Where are you?
Me: We're sleepin here in the studio soo....
Myra: Okay. Be there in 10 minutes
And she hung up.

 Why can't Babe be like that? It's obvious that she isn't okay but willing to help me still. Why can't ugh. Stop it Liam. Stop comparing.

And I saw Myra walking inside the studio wearing coat and boots and her hair filled with snow.

Liam: It's snowing already?
Myra: Yea. Seems like the weather is with you.
Liam: Huh?
Myra: *chuckles* Nevermind. So what happened?
I sat on the couch near the instruments and she sat down opposite to me.
Myra: Where's Harry and Lou?
Liam; Uhm, they're asleep.
Myra: Uhmmm soo?
Liam: She won't come back till Friday?
Myra: JUST THAT?!
Liam: What do you mean just that?
Myra: I mean, you're acting like someone died JUST BECAUSE SHE EXTENDED?!
Liam: BUT I MISS HER, OKAY? I. MISS. HER.
Myra: Fck Dat. She needs to work, Liam!
Harry:*shouting*Hey youu twooo! Do you need anything? 911? Let me get some sleep guys? Pleaseee?
Niall comes out of his room.
Liam: Bro.
Niall: *looks at me* Hey. *looks at Myra* Myra?
Myra: *smiles lopsidedly* Sorry Liam. I must go now. Just, think of her, okay? Understand. Patience.

Myra walked away and I tried to run after her. I saw her crying and I hugged her.

Me: Are you okay?
She pulled away from our hug.
Myra: Bakit kasi, sa kanya pa? Mas gusto ko pang pag agawan ka na lang namin ni Besh. Liam, nan gwaenchanh-a.

And she walked away. I turned back and saw Niall approaching.

Me: Man, what was that?
Niall: I don't know bruh. I'm, I'm too fcked up.

Broken (2)

Hindi kinakaya ng damdamin ko na hindi ipagpatuloy ang pagsulat. Kkk


Athena's POV

Me: Besh, ikaw na bahala kay Leeyumbeb ko ha.
Myra: You'll be shocked, I'm gonna make him mine.
Me: Dafuq?
Myra: Djk. You take care Besh, arayt? Did Liam call you na?
Me: Of course. He's like the sweetest, okay?
Myra: Besh. You're leaving talaga?
Me: Why? What's wrong?
Myra: No, nothing. Nevermind. Have a safe flight!
Me: Bye Besh!

I walked towards the airport entrance and waved to Myra again.

3rd Person

Myra turned her back and as soon as she did, tears started rolling down her cheeks.
"Dapat di ka umalis. Kailangan kita e," she said to herself.

*Liam ni Athena calling...*
Myra: Uhmm, Liam?
Liam: She left already?
Myra: Yea. Like 5 minutes ago.
Liam: Ugh. The show just ended. I would've say goodbye.
Myra: She'll be back on Wednesday. That's just roughly four days.
Liam: Well yeah. Uhm, are the details for the wedding fixed?
Myra: Oh yea. Nothing I can't do alone.
Liam: Just tell me if I need to do anything, okay?
Myra: Of course. At your service.
Liam: Bye Myra. Thanks.
Myra: Bye.

Myra didn't know what to do next. She'll go to him and try once more. Or even a thousand. She can't give up, not when there's the three of them involved now.


Monday^^
 Liam's POV

Ugh. Just two more nights and I can be with her again. I really miss her so bad. I miss her scent, her hair, her glasses, her braces, everything. I reached for my phone and called her.

Babe: Oh Leeyumm? I said don't call right? I'm busy e.
Me: I can't help it babe. I miss you so damn much.
Babe: Aww.
Me: It's really tiresome to sing without your inspiration.
Babe: Liar. Since you called na, amuse me.
Me: Am I not amusing enough? Or I'm not enough?
Babe: You're cute. I can imagine you; pouting and puppy eyes. Just wait, babe. Wait.
Me: Well, you'll be back by Wednesday right? Right? Tell me you will be.
Babe: Uhmm. That's the problem. Uhmm. I'll have to extend till Friday babe. Uhm, it's a must.
Me: Babe, that's too much. You're choosing your work over me, again.
Babe: Babe, please understand.
Me: You have to understand me, too. i understand that you're a journalist but can't you see? I'm a singer but whenever you need me, I will stop a show for you. Remember when I stopped the show in Vegas cause you said your dog died? Can't you do that for me this time?
Babe: Sorry but this is really important..
Me: Well I guess I'm not as important as that.
I hung up. I don't really know. This is too much. I know I'm being selfish but I don't know. I think, I think, it's ugh. I picked my phone again and,

Me: Myra?


Broken

A GenFic Story. Enjoy! :)


Athena's POV

"Last night was really really great," I told my bestfriend Myra.
"Of course! I told you naman it will be, you weren't making tiwala pa," she replied.
"Eh-," *ring*ring*my phone interrupted my sentence. 

*Hotshot calling....*
Me: Hey!
Liam: Hey babe. Lunch out? 
Me: Aww. I'm sorry babe but I'm with Myra.
I can see Myra waving her hands.
Me: Bakit?
Myra: No no. You can go with Liam. Mas gusto mo naman that you'll be with your boyfriend instead of being a thirdwheel diba?
Me: Okay lang ba?
Myra: Of course! Malakas si Liam sakin e. Alam mo na, marami ka ming PINAGSASAMAHAN. ;) 
Me: Bitch. 
Liam: Sooo babe?
Me: Alright. I'll be in the studio in about 20 minutes.
Liam: You sure you don't want me to pick you up?
Me: I'm fine. Okay?
Liam: Okay. Take care babe. I love you.
Me: I love you, too.
Liam: Byee.
I hung up.

Myra: Nagmamaganda. 
Me: Che. Byeee Besh. 
Myra: Byee gurl. 
Me: Ayaw mong sumabay na, baka andon pa si Niall?
Myra: Na sstress ako sa kanya kaya please lang. Byeee.

I went to the parking lot and drove to the studio. Anyways, I'm Athena Thea, a journalist. Well one of the well knowned journalists here in Britain not only because I'm one-heck-of a journalist but also my fiancé is part of the world's most famous boyband: One Direction. Liam Payne. I'm a Filipino but went here in Britain with my bestfriend Myra to study and look for our careers.


^Studio^
Liam walked towards me. "Hey babe! Let's go?" he asked.
"Sure," I said. "Oh wait, Niall, what did you do again?" I asked Niall.
"I was just-," I raised my hand gesturing him to stop. "Save your explanations honey. Go na!"
And Niall hurried past us. 
"Babe, you never called me honey," Liam pouted. 
"Whatever Leeyum. Whatever," I replied. "Bye Harreh! Bye Lou!" We went out of the studio and entered This Restaurant. Yea, yun ang pangalan. This Restaurant. 

Liam: Soooo, how's the plan going? Do I need to be with you during the food tasting?
Athena: Calm down Liam. Myra's working hand in hand with me, so no worries. She's really great so let's trust her.
Liam: Myra is really supportive. 10 years of friendship, huh?
Athena: Oh yes.
Liam: Can I see you on wedding dress before the wedding?
Athena: Why not?
Liam: Cause I heard from Myra that there's this Filipino culture that the wedding won't be successful if I do that.
Athena: HAHA. She's really weird and creep. Of course not, that's just an old saying.
Liam: I just want to be safe. I've already planned my future with you in it and to tell you, I hate changing plans.
Athena: Naks! Anyways, I'll be out of the country the day after tomorrow which is Friday. I'll be back on Wednesday next week, k?
Liam: Youre leaving again babe? Why you always do that?
Athena: Do what?
Liam: Make me miss you and want you so bad. 

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

It's defintely not the person who is important, it's the memories. When you become close with someone and eventually get into fight, you can wish for that someone to die. Or you can wish that you shouldn't have met that person. But you can't fully wish to delete all your memories with that person because you know, it's all important. Now, if it's really the memories that are important, why are you afraid to lose someone? Because you're afraid that you can no longer make more memories with that person. Whatever happens, even if the person dies, you will move on. It's not the dead body of the person that hurts you, it's the moments you've shared. It's not the death glares and stingy words that pains you, it's the fact that you were once so close and for a moment or two, you can no longer be that close. It's painful to know that fact that no one values you because you're a person. Many people values you because you're a friend, a classmate, a daughter. But a nobody will not value you as much as somebody does. It's so damn true that it hurts. It has always been the memories with the person and not the person itself. If you have an amnesia and a person you can't remember shows up, you'll be clueless on how to react. But when you remember the memories you've had with the person, you'll realize how important that person is.

...

Friendship. It's a big word. It has no definite meaning. And yet, can change your wold in a snap. Surviving in this world without experiencing friendship is life without living. (Living should never equate with surviving.) A friend is someone who can give meaning to your life. They can be with you for a lifetime or leave after some time. But no matter how long they've stayed, it won't and will never change the fact that they had built a place in your heart. You would even wonder, for all hundreds of people you see everyday and you meet everyday, how can you know if that person will become or should be your friend. Well, it's something that is something that cannot be answered. It just so happened that you guys can be friends.


Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Night Changes~

Sometimes, you miss the nights when you could talk to someone endlessly. Regardless of the topic, words just roll out of your mouths. It's like, you have an unlimited list of something to say to each other. You miss the times when you could actually write an entire paper about the person because that's how much you know that person. You miss the feeling of wanting to see or talk to someone badly, that it hurts. You crave for their presence because they make your life a little brighter. And if you don't get what I'm trying to say, then you won't know why people can have meaningless yet endless conversations. You won't get why people become friends. Because, friendship isn't something that you buy and get in return. It's not a payment nor exchange and definitely not a favor. You don't make friends to have more people circling around your life. You don't "make" friends actually. Rather, you meet new people and subconsciously becoming friends and it just happened. That's how it supposed to be. No forced connections. No empty conversations. Just sparks between to or more souls mates lucky to find one another.

Little Things

After listening to their songs, I found my favorite <3 I like the song itself and MV too. But watching it is so painful. T^T I like the song maybe because the girl is just SO ME. Welp, the song seems impossible tho. Maging Sino Ka Man ang peg?


Read the lyrics muna. Don't listen to the song. It's <3

Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me
But bear this in mind, it was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me...

I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile
You've never loved your stomach or your thighs, the dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh it's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh, you still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right darlin' but I want you to
If I let you know I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you

I've just let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you
Oh it's you
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

I won't let these little things
Slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you
It's you
They add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things

<3 <3 <3 Isn't wonderful? 


~Directioners Weren't Enough~

So it's been quite some time since I wrote something here and I was busy watching 1D MVs, Video Diaries, and listening to their albums. After Zayn left the band, I found out, I am really a 1D fan. HAHA XD So anyways, I wrote this freakin letter for Mr. Malik and I'm so happy that Perrie and him are okay na. Anyways, it's

Okay. So here are my thoughts regarding those shizzles

But how can he leave the other 4 ON TOUR. Hindi na sya nahiya. While the other 4 were busy adjusting the songs and parts, sharing the supposed to be lunes of Xayn, he's there, recording with Naughty Boy. Sana, hinantay nya muna matapos yung Tour. Or sana, he didn't leave until the tour was done. Not performing in here and Jakarta was pretty acceptable kasi he has to fix things pa with Pers but leaving it, for real? I mean, millions of fans waiting for them, to sing, COMPLETE. Tas ganon na lang? Fck dat. He couldve left pagkatapos ng tour
And worse? Baka bumagsak pa ang 1D kasi it will never be the same without him. The songs will never be the same without his high pitched tone. And because of him, wanting to be famous alone, the other 4 might go down
But seriously. He couldve left after the tour. Maraming nakipagpatayan sa ticket for dat, see them all, perform. Buti sana kung nabuhay nga sya ng normal 22 yearl old, mas tanggap ko yon. As in. Ikabubuti nya yon, nila ni Pers, but seriously. Habang nagpipilit si Harry at Liam i fill yung lines nya, nagrerecord sya ng bagong kanta
Man, don't tell me you dont care about your four best friends. For five freakin years
Im so affected
Monday, as in whole day, I kept on watching all their MVs and listened to all four albums and watched their video diaries
I was so stressed. Im sill stressed. But less likely than before

Monday, February 23, 2015

You're my Mona Lisaaaa
You're my rainbow smile
And the only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautifulll in maah eyesss. 

Monday, February 9, 2015

Soon~

Charles and I were walking kanina and from afar, I saw a balloon being blown away. Then suddenyl, I saw this woman holding a baby inside the tricycle, she was pointing towards the balloon dun sa babay so I thought, hindi naman sa kanila yon. The balloon was so near na, pero umiba ng daan, what I did is kinuha ko yung balloon and gave it to the woman. Charles was like: Kung ako yon, magpapass by na lang ako. Then realization strucked me.

1. There are things in our life na sobrang nakakapagpasaya satin, pero kailangang umalis. That happiness isn't leaving dahil gusto nyang malungkot ka, it's just that, gusto nya pang makapagpasaya ng iba. Like sa balloon, mawalan ka man, intindihin mo na lang, may makakakuha non.
2. There are things in life na sobrang lapit na sa tin pero di maabot. You just need help from the people around you. Asking for help doesn't mean you don't have the capacity to do it by yourself, mas mapapadlai lang at mas makakameet ka ng bago.

Sunday, February 8, 2015

Look at the faces of these people. Oh oh oh, look at the face!

Reviewing for Math and Science and yiyiyi. Idrk what to say. I abandone na this blog like ao long time ago. I'd probably make another blog na. ;) Where, no one else knows. :3

Byeeee~~~

Friday, January 30, 2015

Sportsfest 2015

I so love this year's Sportsfest. Even tho we failed to have the top place, we are on the second place. I'm srsly happy with that. It was wonderful. I joined tons pf activities. I was an active cheerleader and supporter of pur tram. Idk but I reall do have this feeling na my so called,"rituals" work. It all started during the first basketball game of Maroon team. At first, I was so active cheering and whispering that the ball would shoot or sumthin, and it really did. But when the other team started scoring, I got tired and our team eventually weren't able to catch up at all. Just like kanina, our team was like losing na on the first half. I started cheering during the second half and made my rituals again and yes, we won the game. Idk but Im so weird. Also, this year, I was able to make tons of friends. I was able to make children cry and comfort them afterwards, I was able to meet new people and mingle with them. Even tho we didn't win, they will always be in my heart especially the kids. The kids were like my own brothers and sisters na. Every time the game would start, I would always try to encourage them, pat their shoulders and heads. I was always there to comfort someone who is crying and I was always there to play with them. I will surely miss those times when I was doing all those. 

Sportsfest 2015 made me:
Meet lower graders, as in almost all of them
Play Table Tennis, dafak lang noh
Play Word Factory, which I havent played for a long time
Play Scrabble, di ako marunong
Wounded and bruised (I get bruised easily, pak the genes)
Break the wall between two Grade 9 students (Always been wanting to be friends with those two but afraid to get rejected or ignored so yea, new friendss
Be friendsy friends with Ben. Lagi akong naghhi sa kanya tas parang natatakot sya mag hi back. But kaninang Tug-O-War, he gave me a high five, sya yung nag high five sakin, hindi ako sa kanya. Mwahaha. 
Be close closean with Sir Joseph, it started nung Badminton Singles, tas lagi ko na syang binabati pag nagkikita kami. Mwahaha. 
Talk to upper graders, pati James We di pinatawad. Ako na ang pinaka maraming "kilala" na upper graders. 
Many more... :) 
#ProudVader 

Mga anak ko. :) 

Monday, January 26, 2015

Mails

New story here! These will be all diary entries of a girl who blank blank blank and sent it to someone. Enjoy!


August 10,2000

I never thought this day will be so disastrous. Welp, is it normal? I don't know. I'm not really sure. I don't, ugh. I'm frustrated. I want to do many things and achieve many dreams, but how am I supposed to do all those shiz if, if omfg. Friend, I can't say it to you, at least not yet. Please, don't be bothered about me sending mails to you but really, I want to remain unknown to you. Jus call me, call me MJ. Ok? So shits are happening. My life is indeed a roller coaster one. My friend Jam got a call from her bestfriend Jay and Jay said the he liked her and Jam is bugging me on what to do. Mom had quite her job to take "care" of me and everyone is treating me so nicely because they knew about my situation. Friend, I am not really sure what to do but anyway, thanks. :) You'll know me soon. Soon. :) 

Monday, January 19, 2015

Memes

Sooo, I haven't posted for a while. So yea, I've got memes dood.


Okay. I have tons pa. FAKKK I CAN'T EVEN. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA WATDAPAKK. HAHAHAHAHA WAIT, OMG. I CAN'T O FADGE. 


Saturday, January 17, 2015

Personality Tests

Annyeonggg!

Alam nyo naman, bet na bet ko yang mga personality tests na yan. 

People with this hairstyle are always living in their dreams despite of their age. You love to watch drama and have been waiting for your prince. You are picky when it comes to men , very critical and also full of jealousy.


You are sensible , sensitive to other people's feeling, be able to respond quickly, good at working and talented.
(Hiyang hiya ako sa talented ha.)


Passion is the driving force in your life. You live your emotional life more vividly than most, and you frequently feel compelled by those emotions to act. Sometimes your lack of forethought gets you in trouble, but for the most part your friends love how passionate you are about your relationships and your work. There is an intensity about the way you live that your friends envy.


Careful, cautious, stubborn, less likely to reveal inner thoughts or true feelings, may give people a quiet or a bit scary impression in the first meeting. Actually, deep down inside you're very warm-hearted,family-oriented, a little clumsy, not good with words of affection, an cry easily, such as when watching movies.
(Ay true.)

Your intellectual nature drives you to share your knowledge with others. Whether at home or out in the world, your passion for learning inspires those around you. You have no problem asking questions for greater understanding and you give others permission to do the same. And for all this you will be admirably remembered.
(I dun get it.)

Creative and playful, you bring a breath of fresh air even to the tensest situations. You might be shy at first, but you are lighthearted and love to laugh, and those around you find your joy contagious.
(Shy at first, napatunayan na yan Churs at Neq.)

Monday, January 5, 2015

Where I Truly Belong Prologue



I tried to woo her but she never budged. So I changed and became destructive. 





¬¬¬
Gander. Ang haba. :3

Saturday, January 3, 2015

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Princess Hours ~~~

I feel you Chaegyung. I feel you. :( 
I don't get Shin. One minute he's an asshole, the other he's crazy then the other he's so caring. Oh boy, confusing eh?

Mortal Instruments

So yeah, I've been reading Mortal Instruments: City of Bones and it's quite good. How can I say? I've read 100 pages in 30 minutes. Period. XD And then when I checked that it's the 100th page, I tried to look anywhere but my iPad and my eyes hurt. When I faced the mirror, my eyes were bloodshot red. o.O Okay, so I'm a fan agaiin. I want to be a Shadowhunter. Shadowhunters are humans born with angelic blood. They have special abilities when they're born and these Shadowhunters kill demons. Yes, demons. Evils, not vampires unless they hurt people nor zombies because they do not exist. So yeah. First book revolves around Clary Fray who is thought to be a human. But actually, she's half Shadowhunter with the special ability of Sight. She can see elemental things the normal humans can't. Shadowhunters-whenever they kill demons, aren't seen by ordinary humans. They place Marks (symbols that they put on their body that can perform abilities. For example, here on Earth, whenever you draw pencils on your skin, your hand can draw without the need of pencils. But Marks can do extravagant things) to kill demons. Then Clary goes her world upside down when she meets Isabelle Lightwoods and Alec Lightwoods and the dashing Jace Wayland. Dorothea(the fortuneteller) said that Clary will fall for the wrong person, and I'm guessing it's Jace. Yes, of course. ^^ 

S, the book was published last 2008 or 2007 and they released the movie last year, I guess?

Pretty close, Jace. ^^
(Going from right to left)
Clary Fray
Jace Wayland
Alec Lightwoods
Isabelle Lightwoods
Simon sth (Clary's mortal bestfriend who's love for Clary is unrequited.) 

One more widh Santa, aside from being a wizard, I want to be a Shadowhunter, even just in dreams. 
>~<


Friday, January 2, 2015

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Mi amigos!

Watching Princess Hours and reading Mortal Instruments. Tiring~

Princess Hours is really cute. 





I wanted to read this like thousand years ago because I've read the synopsis na and it's really good. :)