I Hate It.

Growing old is mandatory, growing up is optional. Sometimes, I love growing old. Like now, I'm enjoying the privilege of hanging out with my friends cause if you're young, your parents won't allow you to. Also, I like growing up at times. You would know what's the real meaning and essence of life. But usually, I hate it. Growing old is mandatory cause you can't  pull back your age. But growing up? I hate it. It's when you and you're friends would start talking about crushes and stuff. It's when you forget to tease your friend because of her funny cartoon posters in her room but it's when you start teasing each other with your crushes. 

But like what I've said before, what the hell is crush? As what Rothenberg said, is it the "can't eat, can't sleep, can't do your homework, can't stop giggling, can't remember anything but his/her smile" feeling? I don't know. Really. My first crush when I was in Grade 5. He wasn't that perfect type. Mind you, he wasn't that bright. I find him cute, that's all. I didn't took it seriously. I just find him cute. After that, no more. I don't like anyone. I haven't had that "swept of my feet" and "head over heels in like" moment. 

My classmates has. Like most of them. My classmate HAD a girlfriend and my other classmate has a girlfriend. My other classmate was supposed to have one. My other classmate has a crush whom she likes for 2 years, more or less. My other classmate has a crush whom he likes for almost 4 years and yet, no progress. My other classmate, she had but I don't think she has one right now same goes with my other classmate. I bet they should like each other so there won't be any problems. ;) (KenDalyn feels) ^^ My two other classmate, they both like someone. They're cool with their crush not knowing. 

Why am I talking about this? Cause I hate it all. The teasing and stuff. I'm not your typical high school girl. I am plain but not so girl at all. I'm fine with boys around me maybe because I grew up with boys as playmates. I had no choice, they were my neighbors and classmates at the same time. I have a boy best friend who's really handsome now. He was asking me how come we didn't become that cliche love stories where best friends become lovers. He's really funny, ang daming babaeeee. I'm fine with only him around. That feeling when I'm just about to cry and he already knows why I'm supposed to cry. It's really hard. For me, my family and for him and his family , we're cool. But for other people seeing us around together, they would go ask us if we have a relationship or something. So I kinda like it when we were younger where people wouldn't care even though we hang out together. So, it's really hard not to be close with boys in school. I have a lot of boy space friend but one thing that I hate about it is that, when other people see me with one of these boy space friends, they would start teasing. I just kinda hate the set up. I hate it when they say that boys and girls can never be just friends. How about me and my best friend? We've been friends for like 7 years or something but that idea never crossed our minds. We were so open about our relationships with other people to each other and yet, we're super best friends. Just that. Nothing more, nothing less. 

I just hope that people around me would stop shipping me with someone just because they see me with them cause the set up? It's kinda annoying. People are different, even girls are different. Some girls aren't that close to guys but me, I am. So yeah.

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Ayaw ako pasingitin ng hayop kong kakambal. Next time na lang ako mga kapatid, hah! ^^ :* Pero may point sya. ^^